"Stop Thinking, and start doing." - a quote I read a couple of months ago..

but how can you do if you do not know what to do.. or what you want to do?

years ago.. I didn't believe that I can actually see myself blogging or publicizing stories about my life. . but here I am.. actually doing it. See my problem here? It feels like a moment, I want these and that.. another moment, I don't feel like doing it anymore. I can remember a year ago, all I want is to top my exams, quizzes and everything about school. I want to make a lot of friends.. then during my 3rd year, first semester, it felt like I wanted to do something else, I want to model.. I want to show myself up, do have what it takes, to have the personality a model should have. It involves getting high grades in school. And probably being involved in more extra curricular activities. My energy was so high back then, felt like I'm getting what I always wanted.. I tried go sees.. I did not get into but at least it made me feel conquering my dreams. Also, I was inspired by America's Next Top Model show. Time passed, slowly, I got sick and had more realizations in life.. I fell into such a hypnotic stage, wherein I felt like the good things are taking its toll on me.. I felt very negative, lost self-confidence and seemed like I completely lost myself. And there, I saw a different me again, holding this Twilight saga book, I never thought I would read. I never thought of it but I really loved the book. I do not why these things are happening to me.. but right now, I feel so bored with my life.. I think I have nothing to do with. Unlike last sem, I am so grateful for everything. I show myself to everyone, and make them realize that I am pretty too.. But right now, I don't care about the attention Iam getting. I just wanted to live a normal college life. A thing I never dreamed of...